[[*i bElieve in fairytales]]*

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

[[.:|| sep 7th ||:.]]

finally the events of sep 7th has settled down.
my heart stopped getting heavier and heavier.
my fears have all subsided.
but memories of that day was still vividly
rewinding and fast forwarding in my mind.
the shame, the guilt, the uncouthness,
the unsympathizing gazes and the sighs.
no one understand why.
i couldnt understand myself too.
Why do i learn things the hard way.
i've seen too much and feel too many.

i almost caused the lost of the few most important people in my life.
my families, my beloved friends.

i was tramatize.
i lost hope.
i lost faith.

but now,
i thank GOD.

|| always here waiting for you |12:03 AM|

Saturday, September 24, 2005

[[|| *o* ||]]

a toast of pink champagne anyone?

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thread some good eyebrow today.
with my sister my cousin and mE!!
if u're interested to know when is the
eyebrow threading shop, its at pennisular plaza.
level 3.

my cousin is the only one with a fruitful trip.
while me and sister watch with envy.
hee.

.:: photo ::.

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|| always here waiting for you |12:18 AM|

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

[[|| *o* ||]]

doomsday.
i never knew it will come so soon.

what will happen, i cannot fathom the future.

i can only take it as it comes.

maybe GOD will be kinder to me.

i hope.

|| always here waiting for you |3:00 AM|

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

[[|| Happy Moments ||]]

3.00 @ chalet.

here i'm lying comfortably on the bed, maning my son,
while hub and friends are busy massaging the chickens wings.
wats bbQ without them.
i mean the wings.

yUmmy yUmmy.

marshmellows too!!

@ 5.45 cycing.cycling.cycling.

jane missed the fun cause she came too late.
haha.
poor hub.
didn't enjoy the ride to much.
cause it was a balls on balls thing.
haha.
can't elaborate too much.

@ 7 ++.

fire started. food cooking but still no jane.
man, i'm bloody disappointed.
wat's the fun if i dun get to bbQ stuff.
boo.

@ around 8.

hub and frens went to get some stuff.
haha.
guess wat!
they brought jane back.
good company for me.
we began pigging out on alcohol.
champagne for her and cognac for me.
the usual play cards, loser drink.
i was the camel of the day.

it was exciting in the day and boring at night.
but it was still a fun day.
haix.

Be back.............

|| always here waiting for you |11:52 AM|

Friday, September 16, 2005

[[|| *o* ||]]

The value of life,
in a certain sense,
is determined by the maturity of how we love.

Of how we give, and accept love.

What is yours will eventually come to your arms.

What is not yours will never come to be.

In any case,
we should not lose heart and give up on our hopes .

At the end of the day,
it is about how you will pull yourself together to meet every obstacle along the way.

It is about every sacrifice you make in order to be together.

It is about how you forgive someone for the mistakes he or she makes.

It is about getting back together after some misunderstandings,
because life is not a bed of roses all the time.

God didn't promise days without pain,
laughter without sorrow,
sun without rain,
but He did promise strength for the day,
comfort for the tears,
and light for the way.
In order to see the Rainbow,
you must first endure some Rain .
If God brings you to it,
He will bring you through it.
Truth cannot be created ,
for it is already there ;
Truth is to be discovered ,
for one to see .

When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest,
do you elevate yourself to another level?
How do you handle adversity?

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human and
enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Yesterday Was A History, Tommorow Is A Mystery,
Today Is A Gift, That's WhyIt's Called The Present.....

|| always here waiting for you |4:18 PM|

Thursday, September 15, 2005

[[|| Confuse ||]]

Many emotions overwhelm me since 7 sept '05 that fateful day. His words sort of calmed me.

Today,

A friend asked me: "Are you happy?"
I was puzzle by why the question was asked.

I : "Happy?"
he mistook my answer for yes and..

He : "Good."
again i asked why, but he went on..

He : "O'level coming le..how?"

I : "Erm..mugging."
and he went on asking about my age.

He : "You are 20 this year?"

I : "Ya."

He : "Okay, growing up already huh.?"

I : "Ya, growing up is hard."

He : "Just handle the situations as it comes. But you must learn from your
mistake."

I : "What are you doing when you're 20?"

He : "I lost everything."
He : "Long story. You know and I know."

I : "Is 20 too old a age to make mistakes."

He : "No, 20 is growing but still young."

I : "20, is a difficult age."

He laughed.

I : "You're neither here nor there."

He : "You're here but not there."

I : "Life is a long learning path."

He : "Yes."

I : "There are many many things which i regret doing in the past. I wish
i have a time machine which turns back time so i wouldnt have to make
the same mistakes again. But everyone tells me never look back. What
done cannot be undone. Look to the present and future but never the
past."

He : "Ya. Its true. Don't spent time brooding over the past instead look at
how you can improve the future."

I : " What if you're left with no choice?"

He : "There's always a choice. You choice where you wanna go."

And i believe it. I chose my own path.

|| always here waiting for you |1:25 AM|